This is going to be a not-so-long self-talk-contemplating-mode post. I’ve warned you~
Enjoying the last bit of being alone (sat on the back porch, stare at the wall for the past hours while writing this) on this much anticipated 4th of Oct by doing some mental sorting to all things going in my head and everything happening around me.
Acknowledging that being 24 (though I don’t celebrate birthday but let’s just mark this date as contemplating day, just to remember it easier) has so many implications and demands, yet the (unknown) future looks so awzum.
Few days ago, I asked to beloved netizen, “what does it mean to be “dewasa”?”.
The answers struck me. Hard.
That feeling when you think you aren’t somewhere near that definition. But then it also mean that I know myself and my current position, thus it should help me to work toward my own definition of being “mature enough”. I guess I’ll need some time jolting all indicators of being mature into concrete and workable plan. Let’s hope it works this time.
And that should be a reminder that good thing takes time, that life is forever learning experience, that efforts and prayers should come in a package.
Feel a little bit, umm melancholic (?) or sentimental (?) for no apparent reason today. Realized that soooo many things are about to change AND I CAN’T HARDLY WAIT. Remember the crazy-anxious-happy-yet-‘deg-degan” of going to theme park and trying that crazy roller coaster ride? Yeah it’s scare you (a bit) but the excitement beats everything.
And anyway, cheers to #theINNfinity (no I haven’t confirmed that hashtag with him) (I just feel like use that) (subject to revision)